Sunday, April 26, 2009

Sleeping with Bread: Stale and Moldy

It has been a long time since I wrote a Sleeping with Bread post. Officially, I was observing Lent by forgoing blogging, Facebook and Twitter.

But there was more to it than that. Right now, I am having a difficult time finding the consolation in my life. My options in a SWB post, then, are to dwell on the difficult and overwhelming and fake the consolation, forgo the consolation altogether (completely NOT the point) or just not write. So, for the most part, not writing has been my approach.

I want to be clear that I do KNOW that I have consolations in my life. Absolutely, I do KNOW it. It is just that I am not feelin' it right now.

I had lunch with a good friend last week and we talked about--you guessed it--Life, the Universe and Everything. This friend has had a completely different life than I have. Different issues. Different choices. However... we have that camaraderie that comes from going through some pretty big stuff. We recognize the crazy thinking that we tend to do when we are stressed. It was good to talk to her and have her affirm that my circumstances are such that my state of mind is very understandable... and it is temporary. It will pass.

And so, here I sit... in my room... in the dark because of migraines... and I chose to go ahead and write about my stale, moldy bread... and even though I just got finished telling you that I am not feelin' any consolation in my life right now...

I just told you about one, didn't I? I had lunch with a friend who can empathize with me and help me see more clearly.

And I am grateful for that friend... and for my family that is healthy... and that school is almost over for the semester... and that I can joke around on Twitter and Facebook... and that I can DM certain friends and tweet privately what I won't tweet publicly... and I had a yummy chicken w/vegetables and brown rice dinner... and I have a new heat pack... and Marley had a great 9th birthday party at her gymnastics center...




the list could go on and on.

That is the great thing about taking the time to write a Sleeping with Bread post. It helps. It really does.

You can check out what others have to share over at the Sleeping with Bread blog.

And just for kicks, here is a picture of Marley's birthday cake:

If you click on the picture, you can appreciate all the detail on the doggy.


Anonymous said...

Sometimes being introspective is too hard. Especially when it comes to blogging. Glib gets me through my days. Often.

Great cake. The dog even has eyelashes? Nine! Nine? She seems so much older than 9!

Lamont said...

Loving the dog cake as well - perfect for your 9 year old!

I understand where you are coming from on your not "feeling"consolation so easily at present. Today is one of those for me too.
But as you prove in your writing, what the heck, even in the darkness you can find glimmers of light when you describe it.

Sleeping with bread - here I come.

Mel said...

Ah, the words of WPIML--since when does wanting to do something have anything to do with actually DOING it? *sigh* It's the discipline for me, yaknow? Once I let myself off the hook for actually doing it I'm on the highway to trouble. At least when I go through the motions I'm 'forced' to recognize what's right in my life. And eventually it does pass--this 'how it feels' jazz.
Personally, I think ya done GOOD!

((((((( you ))))))))

Nice to have you back breaking bread with all of us! :-)

Mel said...

Ohhhhhh....WAY cute cake!!!

(belated b'day wishes to the 9 year old!!)

Anonymous said...

LOVE that cake! Happy belated birthday to Marley.

ashley said...

The dog on the cake is darling. Did you make it?
It's nice to see a SWB post from you. The list of consolations you list is wonderful even if they don't feel like enough to balance the stresses, frustrations, and other daily problems.
Prayers for you to feel the consolation in the face of the desolation. God bless.